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Discernment to walk away

On October 23rd I was at home sitting in the living room with my sister and her husband waiting for the OU game to start. I figured that I was able to listen to the game while in my room and that I would be alright to sit and watch it with them. Side note: I have not watched any type of sports since I quit drinking and that’s been a little over seven years now. When the game started, my sister decided to yell loudly and as she did, I reached out and started asking “where’s my beer?” That is when I realized that I needed to get out of the house quickly and go for a walk. I grabbed my ear buds, put on some Christian music and started walking. When I got home I decided to call my parents and see how they were doing. I talked with a cousin to see how she was because she and her husband recently had COVID. I called whoever I thought would pick up the phone. I talked to each of them without them realizing they were keeping me in check by speaking with me. Between calls, I cried because I know that the devil is a liar and I don’t want to drink. I know that I know that I know that I am stronger than what the devil is telling me. Greater is the One living inside of me than he who is living in the world. I even talked with one of our sisters at TIC and I want to say thank you for listening to me talk and help put things into perspective for me. I know now that though I am healed, I am still a work in progress and one of these days, I will not have the same challenges with alcohol and it will not be a thought or a problem. I will be able to one day watch sports again. I want to say thank You Holy Spirit for giving me the discernment to know that I needed to walk out of the house that night and for giving me strength to not give in and the knowledge to reach out to family, church family and friends. Thank you to each of you for encouraging me to continue my walk. Each of you are amazing and I love each of you!